What If
Do you ever wonder how your life would be if one decision in your life had been different?
I like the movie "Sliding Doors" because it shows two scenarios of this woman's life - whether she catches the train or not - and how because of this one act each scenario is completely different from the other. Now, I don't know whether my life would be that much different whether I missed a train home from work (not that we have trains here, but you know what I mean) but I do imagine my life would be different if some of my choices had been different.
What if I hadn't gone to the birthday party where Aphrodite and I became best friends?
What if I'd married who I thought I would when I was 18?
What if I hadn't gone on my grand adventure back east?
What if I'd gone to a different college than the one where I met my husband?
I was thinking about some of these things, as well as others, and realizing how my life has been guided without me really realizing it. I mean, I know in some instances I have recognized a guiding hand, but what about all the choices we make without realizing what kind of effect they will have? Some decisions were hard and I had wanted other things but looking back I know that my life really couldn't be any better and I really didn't have anything to do with it.
I don't know if this is making any sense - it did in my head but it's not coming out quite as clear. I just know that a lot of the decisions I've made in my life didn't necessarily seem like decisions at the time. I was just going along doing what worked for me. I didn't generally consult any divine being - if it felt right I did it. And even though I didn't always look for signs from heaven, or whatever, that doesn't mean my path wasn't prepared for me. And maybe my life would be just as great even if it was totally different. Maybe somehow I'd still have ended up being friends with Aphrodite or meeting Hubby somewhere else. Or maybe not. Because I'd be a different person because of the people I knew and the experiences I had. And I'm sure that would have been fine too. Or maybe not. All I know is a lot of the decisions I've made in my life weren't really made by me. Someone has a plan for me and although some of my decisions don't have eternal consequences - like should I have orange juice or milk with my breakfast - some of them do. And so far, I'm ok with those consequences.
I like the movie "Sliding Doors" because it shows two scenarios of this woman's life - whether she catches the train or not - and how because of this one act each scenario is completely different from the other. Now, I don't know whether my life would be that much different whether I missed a train home from work (not that we have trains here, but you know what I mean) but I do imagine my life would be different if some of my choices had been different.
What if I hadn't gone to the birthday party where Aphrodite and I became best friends?
What if I'd married who I thought I would when I was 18?
What if I hadn't gone on my grand adventure back east?
What if I'd gone to a different college than the one where I met my husband?
I was thinking about some of these things, as well as others, and realizing how my life has been guided without me really realizing it. I mean, I know in some instances I have recognized a guiding hand, but what about all the choices we make without realizing what kind of effect they will have? Some decisions were hard and I had wanted other things but looking back I know that my life really couldn't be any better and I really didn't have anything to do with it.
I don't know if this is making any sense - it did in my head but it's not coming out quite as clear. I just know that a lot of the decisions I've made in my life didn't necessarily seem like decisions at the time. I was just going along doing what worked for me. I didn't generally consult any divine being - if it felt right I did it. And even though I didn't always look for signs from heaven, or whatever, that doesn't mean my path wasn't prepared for me. And maybe my life would be just as great even if it was totally different. Maybe somehow I'd still have ended up being friends with Aphrodite or meeting Hubby somewhere else. Or maybe not. Because I'd be a different person because of the people I knew and the experiences I had. And I'm sure that would have been fine too. Or maybe not. All I know is a lot of the decisions I've made in my life weren't really made by me. Someone has a plan for me and although some of my decisions don't have eternal consequences - like should I have orange juice or milk with my breakfast - some of them do. And so far, I'm ok with those consequences.
posted by Heidi @ 12:01 PM
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