Will You Miss Me When I'm Gone?

I'm going to do something I don't normally do and whine on here for a minute. We'll blame it on the fact that I'm sick. And that's actually what I want to whine about. Last Monday I started coming down with something and by Tuesday I was pretty much out of commission. I was down for pretty much a whole week (and I'm still not completely better). And in that whole time not a single person even had a clue that anything was wrong. Nobody heard from me and nobody seemed to care. I could have died and probably nobody would think much of it (besides my immediate family but that's not what I'm talking about here). Maybe I've been so caught up in school and my own little world that I haven't maintained a lot of the relationships that used to be so important. Or maybe it's just that I'm really not as important to people as I think I am. What kind of effect have I really had on people, if any? There was a time when I really KNEW what kind of effect I had on the people around me and their lives were better for having me around. This is not a post so that everybody will tell me how wonderful I am. I'm just thinking maybe there are some things that need to be changed. It may have to wait until school is done in December. Really, that's my main focus right now and it's totally taking over my life. But, still, shouldn't I still have some impact on the people around me and they would be sad if I was gone?